altered states of #predeath

I was supported by two infiermieri of the Red Cross, which to keep me awake for fear that I fall asleep, I did go down the stairs from the first floor and then let me sit on the seat in an ambulance. By now I was at the limit of my strength, I had lost too much blood I was lifeless, the gash in his right arm, he almost severed his right hand in the net. Despite the initial timely relief, had failed to stop the bleeding, since my previous altered state alcoholic, did not help in any way stop the blood. I had completely soaked the sofa and the carpet of the room, and in those 45 minutes that I have long awaited the arrival of the ambulance, which had to travel only a few hundred meters from Piazzale Loreto in Lambrate, slowly felt that the forces and energies to which I appellavo, to the sound of slaps of my first responders, not to put me to sleep, I were leaving.
I did not feel pain was all hushed around me faded as if the colors were washed out, I could hear the voices confusedly, but I had no accurate perception of what you were saying to me, I felt my body touched and manipulated but I could not understand what I did .
On the way to the Hospital of Lambrate all begin to blur and I began to see all white, were the first signs of the coma, I do not know what happened, but suddenly I found myself lying on a bed in the operating room, and next to me last a black figure, I knew then that he was a priest who was giving me the last rites, I felt bound, forced.
I could not feel my body plus I did not have any sensory perception, but subconsciously I felt strangely relieved, I was not afraid, they were sets of feelings that had nothing to do with the senses commonly experienced.
Suddenly everything became black, closed my eyes, and I found myself in the most absolute silence without any parameter of cognition; dark, black, silent. I do not know how long I remained in that state of apparent death, but when I opened my eyes the, I saw a hand with a syringe that was sticking me directly in my heart, I felt nothing, gl’occhi closed.
Slowly I felt a feeling of lightness inhuman and everything around me, he started to become a dazzling whiteness of white indefinite; just made ​​aware of this new state of being, I realized that I was not more in my body, but I was watching from somewhere, I saw a white figure blurred to which of the men toiled around colored blue, I felt ethereal.
I was fully aware of what was happening, but I was not afraid, in fact I felt refreshed, calm.
Suddenly I was transported with violence towards a bright white light, and I realized that it is composed of the same light that I licked ….

When I woke up they were gone two days, two operations for a total of 15 hours; I was one of the first cases operated with the system of micro-chirugia, the right hand was still there, somehow, lost the opportunity to become a pianist, and in return I was told by distinguished psychiatrists, psychologists and analyst, I’m just a chronically depressed even subjecting sessions of electro-shock, and asserting that given the physical entities of the traumatic experience of life lived predicted a rate lower than the average settling my supposed death around age 40, as experience experienced near-death experience, I had irrevocably altered the perception of the waking state with that of rEM sleep, affecting my business and my dreams were natural beings.

They spent about 35 years, I am now 52, and from that experience little or nothing has changed in me, and nothing has changed little in supporting people who have lived these experiences, but I’m happy, if nothing else, I can still tell , in the face of the baronies of knowledge.

Of course all of the above is verifiable.